A child can be doing great academically, they can appear calm, quiet, well-behaved, and compliant, they can have friends, but they can still be Autistic and they can still be struggling. They just tend to internalise their panic and distress.
That child still requires the same amount of support as the child who is experiencing meltdowns, who is struggling academically and acting out with challenging behaviour.
While the child who is visibly distressed is instantly given support and removed from the situation or trigger that is causing the meltdown, the quiet, compliant and well-behaved child misses out on the support, despite having the same difficulties and possible diagnosis. They often remain hidden, they easily slip under the teacher’s radar, and they go unnoticed. By the time it becomes apparent that they need help, it’s too late, they are burnt-out, skipping school, possibly self-harming and self-medicating, and believing they are broken and a failure.
At the start, the signs they are struggling might be subtle, from a very young age autistic children learn how to mask. They hide their differences so that they can fit in, appear normal, and to be liked. So, it’s important for teachers to listen to the parent and take what they say seriously, they know their child best after all. They shouldn’t have to fight, fight, fight to get anyone to listen and to be heard, to get their child the support they need.
The other thing to remember is where there is an autistic child, often there is an autistic parent (it’s not always the case). They just may not be aware of it yet.
Autistic children often come from a neurodiverse family, the traits are often dismissed as normal because so many in the family have the same or similar traits. The fact that most members of my family are unable to use a knife and fork became a family joke, it was only when I became aware that I could be Autistic at 40, that it made sense. Only one member of my family has been diagnosed as having dyspraxia, but it is possible that others probably could be too. My nephew was diagnosed as having Aspergers when he was a child, I received my diagnosis this year at the age of 41.
Perfectionist
A quiet autistic child tries hard to be perfect, perfect at everything they do, and this puts a huge amount of pressure on their shoulders.
When they can’t be perfect, when they get something wrong or believe they will get it wrong or make a mistake, they are devastated and become highly anxious.
They may try to avoid taking part in a class activity through fear of getting it wrong, so that others can not witness it or make fun of them for it. Feeling different from peers can have a huge impact on a child and their Self-Esteem, and may influence the decisions that they make. Worry and anxious thoughts can disturb their sleep, and cause physical problems such as stomach migraines, headaches and upset tummies.
My child came home upset one day because her name had been moved for talking, being told off or getting in trouble hurts her deeply. She tries so hard to do what is expected of her and to be well-behaved, that when she makes a mistake or is unable to do something it causes distress.
But, she doesn’t show it at school, she holds it in until we are walking away from school, alone. Then, the tears will come and the worry shows, we talk it through to make sense of it, to process it and try to let it go.
If she doesn’t show it at school, then the teacher has no idea there is a problem, I try to encourage her to tell her teacher when she is worried at school, but she doesn’t feel comfortable in doing so.
A sudden change in routine can completely throw an autistic child, and they may struggle with the activities they normally find easy.
My daughter doesn’t have a diagnosis yet, but the signs are there, I have had my suspicions for a while. But, proving it is the difficulty when it is not witnessed at school.
Communication is not a strong point of mine, I get anxious and at times struggle to say what I mean so that I am taken seriously and my child’s worries and struggles are taken seriously. In the first couple of years it was really difficult and I asked for help, both with communication and support with school and support for my child, from a local service, but it didn’t really work out and they signed us off as soon as they could. I have since tried again with the same service, but they just aren’t interested, yet they are meant to be family workers. One of the family workers blamed me for my childs anxiety, that because I have anxiety I am to blame for my daughters, and apparently that is how they all view it. I am not sure they understand how autistic anxiety works. In all honesty I had been doing really well with my anxiety and I never allow my daughter to witness it.
Recently it has become really hard to communicate with school again, after the family workers comment I lost all confidence and I am really struggling to do the school run.
I rely heavily on email to explain my child’s worries and struggles. It makes me feel sad, because it makes me feel as though I am failing my child due to the fact I find it so hard to communicate and can’t get her the support she needs. I sometimes wonder if some of the staff avoid me because I find talking so difficult, but then again maybe that is just me overthinking things. Differences in communication styles can cause misunderstandings.
Mother hen
Some autistic children find it easier to be social with and make conversation with children who are younger than them or children and adults that are older than them, than they do their peers.
Autistic children can be highly empathic, they feel emotions at such a high intensity that managing them is difficult. They can also be sensory sensitive to others emotions, when they see someone else in distress it can physically hurt. They may go out of their way to cheer that person/child up through kindness, humour or support.
They may take younger or vulnerable children under their wing, making sure that they aren’t left out and have someone to play with.
Sensory Sensitive
Autistic children can be highly sensitive to their surroundings, to the needs of others and to things they see. Watching the news can be distressing and cause anxiety, especially if someone is being hurt or there is talk of war. Watching certain programmes can make them cry.
Loud noises, such as fire alarms and hand dryers, can be problematic, not only due to how loud they are, but due to the suddenness as well.
My daughter was terrified of the hand driers in public toilets, so much so she would avoid going in them when possible and refuses to use the hand driers even now. I always had to carry a bag with a tea towel in when she was tiny. She is getting better with the school fire alarm, as long as she has plenty of warning.
My daughter hates wearing jeans, can’t stand the feel of the denim against her skin. She lives in skirts, dresses and leggings. The number of different clothing items we have tried out and which have been discarded to never be worn again. Autistic children can be really particular in what they wear, in some cases, wearing the same items of clothing over and over again, because they know how they feel and feel comfortable in them.
Hair can be another problematic issue, hair brushing can tug, pull and hurt. Long hair, in particular, I have to be so careful when brushing my daughter’s hair. Even the lightest pull can cause pain and has in the past triggered a stomach migraine, which in turn causes her to throw up. Which isn’t ideal when you have to leave home on time to walk to school. When it hurts, she will tap her fingers on the side of her head, she says it helps her manage the pain. A hair cut has triggered a stomach migraine, I believe it is a sensory thing. She has to wear her hair up for school; we have gone through so many different types of hairbands, to find ones that don’t pull on her head or hurt as much when they are being taken out.
Another thing that has triggered a stomach migraine is when she fell over and scrapped her knee, she ended up with stomach pain which didn’t subside until she had been sick.
She loves the washing labels in clothes, she often plays with them when she is worried or anxious, because they feel silky to touch they bring her comfort. Many times she has cut them out of her clothes to carry around in her pocket.
Some children may appear to be a “tattle tale”, but it can be in an attempt to have some control over the environment they are in, bringing a bit of calm to the chaos of a noisy classroom rather than trying to get someone in trouble.
Teachers Personality and Expectations
At the start of the school year, more so during the primary years, you have a change of teacher. You have to learn their personality and what their expectations are as well as the school curriculum.
Are they patient, are they friendly, or are they the type of teacher who shouts. My daughter finds shouty teachers difficult to cope with, the shouting hurts her ears and she loses trust in them quite quickly.
There was a new teacher at her school at the begining of the school year, luckily not her class teacher, but she is spending a few lessons a week with her. She comes out of school and tells me that this teacher is so rude, she does not like the way she talks to the kids, she rushes them to finish whatever activity they are doing and she shouts. Other children that are in this teachers class seem to like her and find her kind. I am wondering if my daughter is struggling to understand the tone and loudness of the teachers voice, she is quite abrupt and loud in her communication and tries to hurry the kids along apparently. One of the mums told me.
Early reader
An interest in the alphabet and words, and noticing patterns, can help an autistic child become an early reader. I believe the correct term for this is Hyperlexia, my daughter taught herself to read words from a very young age, once I realised I encouraged her ability.
There was a down side to this, at 2.5 she was able to read signs and road names, on the telegraph poles on our walk to nursery was signs saying “danger of death”, she became terrified of telegraph poles because she thought they would hurt her. Despite me trying to explain, It took a while longer for her level of understanding to catch up to her level of reading, and eventually the fear of them left her.
They may have an amasing memory , my nephew appears to have a photographic memory, it is an advantage with learning. Often only needing to be told or to read something once for it to become neatly stored away in their mind. They often have a thirst for learning and a mind for holding facts, noticing patterns and analysing fine detail. The questions they ask may appear a little different, but knowing how things work, why a frogs tongue is sticky, why hedgehogs have prickles and why the moon is white, may be of great importance.
Knowing their timetable and school routine can also be of great importance, it allows them to be prepared and know what is expected of them. Change and anything out of the blue can throw them out and cause a huge amount of anxiety.
Anxious worrier
The anxiety they have felt at school, due to sensory overload, routine changes and being overwhelmed, often doesn’t come out until they are home. It can be expressed in an anxious dialogue of worries or it can be like a volcanic eruption of emotions, such as an angry outburst or Negative behaviour. They may have a meltdown or a shutdown, they may have stomach migraines and sleepless nights. None of which are seen at school, so they miss out on an accurate diagnosis and support.
My daughters anxiety often comes to a head at bedtime, she will avoid going to bed for as long as possible because she knows that that is when her thoughts have a free reign, some nights she doesn’t get to sleep until 2.00am or later. Worrying over all sorts of things, whether the school fire alarm is going to go off the next day, the house catching fire, me or her dad dying and a whole host of other things. If she isn’t sure why she is feeling anxious and isn’t able to explain it, her mind will find something to worry about, something she can explain and something safe.
She has already started to ask for days off school, so that she can avoid the thing that she is worried about or the thing she doesn’t feel she can do. Some days it’s so she doesn’t have to worry about the fire alarm going off. If she can stay at home and not go out and she is with me, she is fine and her anxiety goes until bedtime or she sees something on TV. I no longer let her watch the news.
Working with autistic children while they are young, teaching them to understand big emotions and giving them support for their fears and anxiety, can give them the resources they need to cope as they go through school. Leaving it until the problems become more of an issue can halt their learning later on and prevent them from having the school experience and success they deserve.
I know from personal experience how bad it can get, school can be a nightmare experience, and it is not something I want my daughter to go through. I want her to have some support and to be taught the tools she needs to get her through school. I may come across as an overprotective mum, but I know what the outcome can be when the support and understanding isn’t there.
When a parent says their child is struggling, they mean their child is struggling, it shouldn’t have to be a fight to get them help. Yes, they may appear fine at school, but that doesn’t mean they are fine.
My daughter has the transition to the next school soon, I am well aware that is when things start to really change, the friendship dynamics change and become more complex, with new children in a class making new friends is often difficult. Then there is the movement between lessons to contend with, new staff, and new expectations. That was when things started to fall apart for me, and I worry whether the same will happen for my daughter. Although she has more confidence than I ever did and she hasn’t had the experiences I did. I so wanted to get everything in place before then, set up a support network for her, if she ever needs it.